韩语发表的草稿

在韩国当交换学生的时间过得特别快，不知不觉我就要回家了。来了那么久，我经历的，我看过的，我尝试的，我觉得我这一生都不会忘记。就让我想你解说，我最喜欢韩国的五件事。

一，天气。我记得当我第一次抵达韩国的时候，给我们这些从热带国家来的人们最深的印象是这里的天气。整年都活在摄氏三十五度的我们，很喜欢四季的变化。我很喜欢春天的雨点，夏天的海边，秋天的落叶和冬天的雪花。也可能是因为这个原因，韩国人都比较浪漫吧！

二，情歌。说到浪漫，不可能没有韩国的情歌。没有人不知道韩国情歌的浪漫，没有人不知道韩国连续剧的伤感。在这情歌盛产的国家，不管在哪里都可以听到情歌。但是我注意到韩国情歌里，常见的单词排行榜有的是：“怎么办？”，“谎言”，“眼泪”，“疯了”，“痛苦”，“心脏”，“等待”，“幸福”，“忘记”，“笨蛋”，“为什么？”，“离开”，“时间"，”对不起“，还有“爱”。马上就可以来造句，不管怎么造都会有伤心的效果。

三，科技。没了科技，情歌该怎么样与世界分享呢？网速，决定你能做的一切。来到韩国，我可以上网看视频，我在马来西亚完全不可能做得到。马来西亚的平均网速为50kb/s，来到韩国我竟然可以看到宿舍里看到3mb/s的网速。对于一个常常用电脑的人，这是一件很幸福的事情。

四，韩语。韩语的文字很简单，结果到现在我们都能读懂韩语，但是完完全全都不知道我们正在读着什么。确实，不像其他的语言，韩语的构造分部分来读，只要把全部念出来就当作是会读了。

五，韩国人。韩国人的热情让我们感到很舒服。很友善，很有趣。特别是和他们一起生活了一年以后，明白了他们生活上的习惯等等，发现他们都很亲切。也可能是因为我好运吧！

Bubble

Kite

I flew a kite today, for the first time.

For some reasons, I saw the same resemblance on me.

I might be up there having fun,

but there's still a string,

I will want to go home, eventually.

你，过得还好吗？

不知不觉地，我已经在这里过着我第八将近第九个月了。
第一次在异地一个人生活，我应该觉得快乐吗？
可能我快乐，可能我没有。
我休息了那么久，是时候再次出发了。
我在这里过得蛮好的。

不知道，你过得好不好。

你没有上网的习惯，我不是不知道的。
我常常望着msn发呆，我也觉得很傻。
等待着你上网的机会毕竟不是零。
这不代表我过得不好，而是我又开始怀恋了。
看着你的facebook的status，一起跟着那些情绪的起伏。
这比一般的电影情节来的好，至少我们还有facebook和msn。
听说科技可以拉近彼此的距离，但他们忘了说：科技也可以让人更遥远。

不知道，你在那里过得好不好。

不是我不能适应，只是在现实的摧残下，我还在寻找着那遗失的美好。
以前简单的相处方式，以前直接的坦诚相对。
面对这新的世界，新的人，新的事情，新的选择，有时还真的很累呢。
我想你也应该是这样想的吧。
在这里可能是因为语言，我从来没有那份融入的感觉。
常常很像个路人，看着人家的忙忙碌碌和人家的风风雨雨。
听说这就叫做停滞在一个地方，看着时间的流逝，但他们忘了说：停滞的人们不想停下来，他们只是怀恋过去。

不知道，你在那里和他们过得好不好。

Depression Factors

I can get depressed. Yes, I can. Fortunately, it does not appear rather frequently and does not induce me to a suicidal attempt.

After I came to Korea, I finally pinpointed what are the reasons that cause these negative feelings built-ups. There are exactly 3 reasons that could very likely results in crankiness, irritation and ultimate sarcasm which exclude all the other probabilities which yet to be explored. This 3 factors mentioned below have to work closely to each other to produce the best result.

1. Bad Dinner
Dormitory food is filled with surprises. Sometimes it could be good and sometimes you just feel like dying just by looking at the menu. About Korean food, I am not sure whether it only apply to the dormitory scope or not but I realize that they bear the following conditions:

A) Any food will have the "R" probability.
Here refers to the fact that any kind of ingredients from vegetables to meat and all the way to soup too can be prepared in a way that it is entirely red. Red food usually taste spicy in a very salty and sweet way. The Worst Case Scenario: The entire food tray for that night is red.
(Dish1*A)+(Dish2*B)+(Dish3*A)+(Soup*A)+(Kimchi*A)+(Rice)

B) All vegetables are cold.
Here refers to only vegetables regardless whether it is taugeh or a weird leaf thing that does not look edible at all. Vegetables are suppose to be eaten cold so that the nutrient values in the vegetable could be retained, but excuse my Chinese-ness, cold dishes other than appetizers and desserts are unacceptable. The Worst Case Scenario: Bibimbap. (Rice + A + B) - Meat

The only way to temporarily relieve this sorrow is this if and only if Factor #2 allows.

2. Money (Lack of)
It is a fact that $200 in Korea is never going to be enough, even when the food and accommodation had been covered. To move to one place and come back easily cost $4 and one meal might be $5 and above. For a Malaysian, this is very painful. After the currency exchange, out meal back in Malaysia is $3 comes with lots of meat, lots of rice, a bowl of soup and a beverage like sugar cane drink. So, being an underpaid exchange student working in the university while studying, I am constantly broke. This condition is much more bearable if it is one sole problem without the influence of the Factor #1.

3. Undesired Physical Conditions
Immobility is something that I personally cannot tolerate. Being stationary at a spot bore me to the point where I will pull out all my hair and whine for 24 + hours. Undesired physical conditions here refer to any kind of sickness which result in utter tiredness or a hole on the sole of the leg.

There you go, 3 depression factors especially when you are overseas.

FML.

8eight - Sing to the Lost of Love.

Remember to breathe sometimes, don't drown.

Remember to remember sometimes, don't forget.

Remember to appreciate sometimes, don't lose it.

Summer Monster

One thing that I am annoyed about summer is the insects, 
especially flies and mosquitoes.

No, summer, 
don't come so soon, please.

A Cup of Coffee

Sitting at the cafe in front of the dormitory with a bunch of them. The entire night. Sunday night, just a bunch of us, occupied the cafe till they all started to mop, signalling us to leave. For the entire time, only one cup of coffee is purchased. A cup of coffee for 3 hours of chatting moments.

I adore randomness, I just realized.

The topic ran from getting married to where do people go after they die, discussed with an international aspect, which triggers my brain cells after I hadn't utilized them wisely for the past 6 months already.

"Life is a cup of coffee," I told him. Depending how much sugar you are willing to add in so that it will be better. "Life is a cup of bitter tea." He told me. It might be bitter for a while, but it will not be bitter forever. "Life is a cup of coffee." I told her. You get to decide how your coffee would taste like, when will you taste your coffee, and how you will remember your cup of coffee, forever. "But some people like it bitter." She told me.

"And I don't like coffee."

What if I don't like coffee, it's not like I can change to a cup of hot chocolate anytime soon. Choices are expensive, even changing your flight date cost money. Making changes require cost, nothing is ever easy in life.

Can I have my cup of hot chocolate?

What if hot chocolate is too expensive and I can only get a cup of Earl's Grey instead? What will I do then? Maybe I should feel content with what I have, I wouldn't want to risk. Even if life is a cup of coffee, I wouldn't want to miss the hidden greatness in the coffee will still wandering what I would choose other than coffee.

Perhaps a cup of Caffe Latte will do?

Someone told me I don't have a clear stand, usually standing in the center wandering left and right. It's a personality, I guess, although I didn't quite like it. Indecisive should be my middle name, despite that I didn't quite like it. It's not going to bring me anywhere.

Should I just bloody drink that coffee already?

What if I regret for the rest of my life? I still have to do something. Probably buy a cup of milk to standby. Whatever that I would choose, I have to do it fast. My sister is next in line, and my dad is thinking how to pay for the coffee for both of us.

I might need a waiter or a menu now.

Hello Spring

Hello spring, nice to meet you for the first time. 

Such beautiful cherry blossoms you have there.

Skipped

Skipped the class for 2 weeks already.

I really did felt the love, especially when you wake up and you say to yourself, "It's okay to skip it." Last week for me to do this, I guess. Have to attend the class before the lecturer remove me from the attendance list.

Permanently.

Such a dreadful class. Seriously, major subjects conducted in English is difficult to understand and I did not mean the subject. So, unless you are sponsored by the government or are a native Korean born and raised at Korea, if not you are going to suffer.

The other class that I enrolled was Linear Algebra 1 which was suppose to be taught in English but I have to drop it after the first class because the class was taught in Korean due to the fact that the teacher trying to make it easier for the majority of the class to understand regardless whether we understand at the end of the day or not.

Well, I am glad I'm only an exchange student and my credit hours doesn't count over here. So I told myself that it's okay to do bad things once in a while far away from home, repeatedly.

Probably too much.

It ain't good.

But I felt the love, the love of peace and quiet. =)

LOL Moment

I miss you guys, so much. It was so much fun and random moments. 

By the time I go back to reality, it will not be the same anymore.

 Live well, my friends. But don't forget that I'll still be there, always.
P.S: William's pose is so damn funny.

小幸福

空闲的下午，幸福。

无聊的下午，搬了电脑下去和Melissa一起坐在咖啡厅里玩电脑。

两个无聊的人，一个慵懒的午后，简单的小幸福。

不需要管什么东西，不需要在意任何问题。

外面的阳光好灿烂。