NDSL

I finally made up my mind and bought a Nintendo DS Lite for myself.

My classmates in the class are holding PSP all the while (I have proof) and I think it is time to pamper and indulge myself.

Maybe the games in it might not be mature enough for a 18 year-old, but I think I have a very special taste in games.

With all the incomes from the academic achievement. E.g Ang Pao

Bringing it to college and spending my time on this wasn't a really good idea, since I couldn't really make a good use out of that, might as well invest on this.

Investment? You wondered.

My sisters can farm with the Harvest Moon DS and blow with the Bubble Revolution and my mum can have her Mario memories back, while I play all the others.

Some entertainment other than the computer.

NDSL. (Now damn siok lo.)

R.I.P

I now declare my camera is officially dead.

Thank you for being with me for 2 years.

I will not forget you.

You need RM570 to fix, I can't and I wouldn't want to afford.

I think buying another you is more worth it than resurrecting you.

Sorry, my camera.

I need another camera.

Without camera it just feel weird.

=(

Cocktails

I was extremely bored today since I have no class for Fridays.

I asked Steph and Adrian to come over to my house to relieve my pain of boredom since the colleges where they study is like opposite my house.

We somehow got our mind set ready and might be buying Nintendo DS Lite and Steph's PSP at City Bazaar at KL tomorrow.

Suddenly, Esther called and asked if I want to go out with her and Ye Heng to Little Bally, a pub I would describe it as.

This is the 1st time I laid my tongue on COCKTAILS.

Each of us ordered 2 and we got another 2 glass of cocktails free.

Alcohol doesn't taste nice by itself but I think I'm fine with cocktails. With a splash of sourness, alcohol doesn't taste as bad.

I tried 8 types of cocktails today and I got so high. LOL.

For the 1st cocktail party, we shall cheer!

Mid Term Break

My one week of mid term break seems to ended up in the trash, total waste.

I practically do nothing.

Well, I watched 2 anime series, Ouran High School Host Club and XXXHolic. Ouran High School Host Club is funny like hell while XXXHolic tends to give your some minor goosebumps, especially when you are watching it at 3.00am. The current project is Baccano!

That's right, I did not sleep early as well during my holidays. For the 1st time, I'm able to stand until 4.00am in the morning and not feeling any tiredness or whatsoever. Maybe that's considered as some sort of achievement. But my classmates have to bear with my extremely obvious panda eyes.

You ask me why I am stuck at home watching anime all day and night?

I was getting some major ffk (fong fei kei [Cantonese] : To describe a person made a promise to be at certain place at certain time but suddenly unable to make it regardless of any reasons that are given.) streak. At the end of the day, it's best for me to stay at home and watch anime.

I sent my camera to fix at the Sony Service Center near Mid Valley during the holidays, at last some time for me to send it in for resurrection purposes. It had been dead for quite sometime already. I'm starting to miss the camera.

Heard that Ham (my classmate with some "awesome" name) had finally cut his hair and as much as he wanted to hide it, his photo appeared at Hui Wen's blog. I don't want to point out who is him just to be nice to him since his hair is actually, erm... Not so nice. Or maybe I should say, weird. Or, not suitable. =) [Note: Personal Opinion]

Met Ivan A.K.A AhBun the previous Sunday, apparently he is studying at Taylors (School of Hospitality and Tourism) at Mentari. I found out that Subang Jaya KTM station and Setia Jaya KTM station is actually like from Carrefour to Mentari Park. Wasted my one ringgit just to go there. Went up to Ivan's room he rented at the Mentari Court nearby and the condition was OMGness. Ventilation. Failed. The room is so stuffy and so hot. Barely able to breath properly. Must run out to 7-11. Good luck AhBun. XD

YA MAN! Going back to college next Tuesday. At least I will look more like a human when the normal school like resumes.

P/S: I want to dye my hair.

Song of The Month

"Bye Bye" - Mariah Carey

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

As a child there were them times
I didn't get it but you kept me in line
I didn't know why you didn't show up sometimes
It's something more than saying "I miss you"
But when we talked too
All them grown folk things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show because
You loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today face to face

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"
"I wish I could find a way try not to cry"
As time goes by
And soon as you reach a better place
Still I'll give the whole world to see your face
And I'm right here next to you
It feels like you gone too soon
The hardest thing to do is say bye bye

(Bye Bye [3x])
Bye bye

And you never got the chance to see how good I've done
And you never got to see me back at number one
I wish that you were here to celebrate together
I wish that we could spend the holidays together
I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the Teddy Bear you gave to me that I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
That you can make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"
"I wish I could find a way try not to cry"
As time goes by
And soon as you reach a better place
Still I'll give the whole world to see your face
And I'm right here next to you
It feels like you gone too soon
The hardest thing to do is say bye bye

(bye bye bye bye bye bye [3x])
Bye bye

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandfather
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"
"I wish I could find a way try not to cry"
As time goes by
And soon as you reach a better place
Still I'll give the whole world to see your face
And I'm right here next to you
It feels like you gone too soon
The hardest thing to do is say bye bye

(Bye Bye [3x])
Bye bye

Empty

Today Chen Liang told me he got a JPA scholarship and is going to chase his dream all the way to Germany.

I suddenly felt so empty. It is like the feeling you are about to lose something and basically you are just left there emotionless.

Most of my friends are leaving. Leaving me and continue their life on their own. Leaving me and go far far away.

Of course it wasn't only Chen Liang that give such a huge impact on me. Stephanie, Adrian and lots of them are leaving for America next year.

And most likely they are not coming back ever again.

I sighed.

I mean what can I do right? Eventually friends have to leave, and it doesn't mean you cannot contact them via internet. But, when they are busy with their lifestyle, meeting new friends, proceed with their life, the effect is obvious on me.

I have to go on with my life too.

I wouldn't mind meeting new friends but I will miss my old friends, a lot. Realizing the truth or understanding the reality doesn't help in my social life. At point like this, the only choice I have is to ignore.

The fact is the fact. No point ranting anymore.

All the kawans out there, remember to remember me oh.

First Event

I had been missing for the past 7 days.

Well, I am busy with a pretty scary schedule. I'd completed two of my mid term and one of my presentation this week. The most hectic and interesting highlight of this week is our very first event in the Diploma in Event Management. The Teacher's Day Luncheon with the help of the Hospitality students as well as the Performance and Media students.

The event was attended by 155 teachers, counselors, PK Hems and principals. "Bright and Beautiful" is the theme for the event. So we had the whole multi purpose hall decorated with red, yellow and orange color.

When I talk about decoration, I have to say that I was quite satisfied. Although I wouldn't have the "WOW" feeling but I at least I got the "Not Bad" expression on the face.

I didn't expect the PVC pipe actually worked as a balloon arch. I tried to bend it three times and I broke it two times. Sometimes this kind of things, better pass it to the professionals. Seeing Anastasiah and Elaine doing the arch for the whole night. The next morning the balloons all shrank since it was filled with helium. They have to redo it again. But I'm glad it worked, it was rather beautiful too.

We worked on the hall decoration until 12am yesterday and continued this morning until 10.30am. All of the decorations were in good condition except the title for the teachers signature board was a bit not in place. Apparently the double sided tape hate us. Had to run to the campus bookstore to get more since we are running out of them.

We are suppose to have our teacher signature board in a partition like the photo but then the lecturer asked us: Do you think it is enough for 155 teachers to sign? And so, we did modification after that.

When our lecturer said she want to make a new ceiling, our eyes are wide open. But today, it is there. Nice and beautiful. The whole concept is to have cloths and balloons alternate stretching across the railing on the second floor. It was spectacular, I think.

Pn Zaharah came to the event with two other teachers. Our lecturer apparently knows her, in fact quite well.

Photos and Videos will be added to this post next week.
Coming Soon. Stay Tuned. Be Right Back.

Meanwhile, you can read Hui Wen's post on this event.

Ladolf Tagged Me?

Instead of typical tagging, why not we do a comparison.
ShawnKid VS Ladolf Zhen Huitler

1) What is the most important thing in your life?
LZH: To live.
SK: To live happily without any regrets.

2) Will you consider a sexual relationship before marriage?
LZH:No way. It's a sin!
SK: Consider? I don't think so.

3) Do you smoke?

LZH: Never.\
SK: Nope. Can't stand the smoke anyway.

4) What is the latest gadget that you own?

LZH: I'm guessing...my webcam...?
SK: My handphone. Dated November 2007.

5) Who did you mostly text yesterday?

LZH: My friend lalalala~~
SK: Everyone but no one seems to reply.

6) How old are you & are you a virgin?

LZH: I have not lived pass my second decade and yes, I am a virgin.
SK: Same age with LZH and yes, I am a virgin too. LOL.

7) What is the last thing that you bought with your own money?

LZH: A webcam!
SK: J Co Donuts.

8) Where do you wish to get married?

LZH: Planet Earth! (my answers are so damn retarded)
SK: Anywhere abnormal. Might consider to have wedding each time we go to an unusual place. That's a lot of times, FYI.

9) How old do you think you will be permanently owned by your love?

LZH: Don't know. Years and years later. And even so, I want a partnership. XD
SK: Not sure. But won't be early. Got tons of stuff waiting for me to do. Won't tie myself down before I finish the list.

10) How many kids do you want?

LZH: At least two. A boy and definitely a girl. Cause I never had a sister and my parents always wanted a baby girl. At least they might get to hold a granddaughter. XD
SK: If possible a twin. Twins are so cool.

11) Are you in love?

LZH: Definitely. No.
SK: Nope. Care to love me? LOL.

12) Where was the last restaurant you had dinner?

LZH: Can't remember. I think it was at...KFC. LOL.
SK: Can't recall it too.But it was on Monday with Esther at Pyramid.

13) Name the lastest book that you bought?

LZH: White Night. By Jim Butcher. About modern day wizards and warfare. =P
SK: I don't buy books. I borrow them.

14) What is your full name?

LZH: Ladolf Zhen Huitler.
SK: Don't tell me you don't know. It's all over this blog.

15) Do you prefer your mother or father?

LZH:I don't know. Mother has her good points over daddy, Papa wins over mama sometimes.
SK: Mum. My dad got the tendency to assume stuff on me. All of them are negative.

16) Do you believe in GOD?

LZH: Obviously.
SK: I am currently wondering.

17) Name a person that you really wish to meet in real life for the first time.

LZH: Gimme any old warmonger and I'mma shoot them in the face with a nailgun.
SK: I want to meet the top ten richest people on earth and asked them to give me 1% each. XD

18) Christina or Britney?

LZH: Both are shits.
SK: Christina Shit or Britney Poop? LOL. I don't really know them.

19) Do you do your own laundry?

LZH: Nope. But I do pack up my own clothes after drying.
SK: During NS, I wash my clothes. But I see how untalented am I in this washing thing so I hand over to my washing machine.

20) The most exciting place you want to go?

LZH: Anywhere outta Malaysia sounds interesting.
SK: I want to go Burj Al Arab Hotel in Dubai and I want to go Ice Hotel in Sweden. This is only 0.1% of the places that I want to go. You have no idea how long is my list.

21) Hugs or kisses?

LZH: Neither and either.
SK: Prefer both together.

22) Single or attached?

LZH: Single.
SK: Single but N/A

23) Point out 5 things about the person who tagged you.

Ladolf Zhen Huitler

Smart-Friendly-Damn Good Pianist-Humorous-Sarcastic-

8 things I am passionate about:

LZH:
- Studying. (ROTFLOL)
- Music.
- Movies!
- Friends. MAKING friends.
- Sleeping.
- The Computer.
- Mastering driving!
- Last but not least, family!

SK:
- Event Management
- Music in all forms
- Photography
- Technologies
- Money
- Traveling
- Friends and Family
- Myself

8 things I say too often:
LZH:
1. Verurteilung.
2. Bodo.
3. SHERVAUNE! (WTH is this...?!)
4. Kisiao.
5. Sap sap water.
6. LOL.
7. Nuuuuu~~~
8. Save water drink beer!

SK:
1.Sweat.
2.炸到。(Speechless.)
3.Ah Ne Kuan Dou Eh Sai? (Hokkien: Like that also can?)
4.你在坚持些什么？(What are you trying to inisist here?)
5. I give you triple dots for that particular respond.
6. Bloody Hell.
7. Life is like a/an ______. (Fill in the blank and start explaining.)
8. No money lah!

8 Books I've Read Recently (XD):
LZH:
- White Night
- The Miniaturist
- Essentials of Economics.
- STPM Precalculus.
- Financial Accounting: An Introduction
- Death Masks
- Blood Rites
- Discovering Computers 2008: A Gateway to Information, Course Technology

SK:
- Sunway University College Student Handbook
- Introduction to Hospitality Part 1
- Introduction to Hospitality Part 2
- Introduction to Entrepreneurship
- Introduction to MEEC
-MICE and Events Accommodation Product
- Next
- 与死神喝下午茶

8 songs I could listen to over and over again:
LZH:
- Helpless When She Smiles - Backstreet Boys
- Your Love Is A Lie - Simple Plan
- Slither - Velvet Revolver
- Follow You Home - Nickelback
- All We Are - OneRepublic
- Beat It - Fall Out Boy feat. John Mayer
- Wo Bu Pei - Jay Chou
- Apologize - OneRepublic

SK:
Can't make up the mind to state it here.

8 things I learned last year:
LZH:
- Jay's Piano Battle 2 and Secret as well as Flight of the Bumblebee.
- PRAYER IS DAMN IMPORTANT.
- To drive!
- Appreciate those around me more.

- To work better with those who are my teammates.
- Use a phone. (I got my phone last year)
- My body needs to sleep in afternoons zzngzz...
- I learned that school life...WAS THE BEST TIME in my life! (all you crazy people who think otherwise, please don't leave me comments. Cause everyone would know you had a sad life back in school NYAHAHAHHHAHAHAHAH)

SK:
- Life is short. Play more.
- Driving can be stressful.
- I have a lot more to explore.
- Friendship is just term. It is WAY deeper than that.
- Love sucks. Especially when your best friend is in it. No time for you. =(
- SPM is easier than college life.
- I am a very moderate person. Jack of all trades, master of none.
- Need to enhance my interpersonal skills and networking skills.

8 people to tag:

1. Blank
2. Blank
3. Blank
4. Blank
5. Blank
6. Blank
7. Blank
8. Blank

“我”的感觉

就在最近的这几年，对于自己的定义越来越模糊。会开始怀疑身边的人事物，也开始质疑真正的自己去了那里。或许是想太多了吧！也或许这是一种成长的代价。周遭发生了太多太多的事情，心里只会堆积更多更多的疑惑。一些没有答案的疑惑。

我曾经一度怀疑自己是否患上了忧郁症，还是这纯粹是自己想太多。每天一再重复机器般的生活，觉得自己不是自己。为了别人而戴上面具，是我们没有办法改变的事实。在父母面前得做一个听话乖巧的孩子，在朋友面前得做一个幽默风趣又八面玲珑的家伙，在社会面前只能够谦虚地接受事实的残酷。

曾经去寻找这些答案，但每次我都得到“反正。。。不如。。。”的回复。

上了大学后，朋友们都各自有了自己的生活。有的忙着读书，有的忙着享受生活，有的忙着谈恋爱，有些毕业过后，人影都不知道去了那里。面对着陌生但熟悉的环境，我还没办法度过这个低潮期。忽然之间只剩下自己一个人面对眼前的前途茫茫，我还没办法适应这种感觉。

这种空虚的感觉。

发现到自己完全不像以前的自己。曾经的爽快与潇洒已随风而去了。曾经的笑容与快乐一定要离我而去吗？

“我”的感觉到底去了哪里？