我要的太多了吗?

事过境迁,我身边的东西一直在变.不管是人,事,还是物,没有一个能停顿在那里的.我也只能够感叹.我感叹的是人类心里那残酷的事实.我伤心的是因为那种种的原因.我还有什么样的立场来渴望些什么.我是否也应该接受事实然后好好走下去了?
最令我痛心疾首的莫过于"友谊"这两个字的脆弱.
我曾经以为朋友是一个独特的个体,一个知道你的弱点但还是可以很爱你的人,一个至少懂得珍惜你的存在的人.但事实却不然.朋友只是一个过程,只是一个暂时让你停顿一下子的港口.我还能怎么样?
表面上可以很好,内心世界嘛一直都在起哄.在你面前可以是朋友,在背后猛刺的也是同一个人.
我要的只是一份简简单单单纯的友谊.我要的太多了吗?

It Happened.

Guess what? As irony it may sound, just few days after my previous post, it happened. It freaking happened.

I missed two classes in a row, I wouldn't want to call it achievement just to get the graphics printed for the graphic design project presentation. Oh ya, along with Jane, Kho and William.

Printing never been so annoying and time consuming before. Until you step into the graphic people shoes.

I must admit, I know how to use Adobe Photoshop but I'm not brilliant in it. And apparently it is not enough. You need Adobe Illustrator to know how to align the artwork to print. All the bleeding, die cut and crop marks seriously did enlightened me in a massive scale.

That was when I noticed something was wrong.

Jane was exhausted. The smile was long gone from her face replaced by a pale hue. I pity her. I seriously do.

We all had come into an understanding, did we not?

It's very frustrating when you work with people that don't freaking care. To top it off, once you care, you are going to suffer.

Effing moments.

I've been complaining about commitment since I was in high school organizing events already. Apparently, this problem aren't letting me go anytime soon.

Jane cared, we cared. Well, most probably cause we know what's the priority in this particular stage in life.

During the presentation, of course, it happened.

Someone blew up, someone screamed, someone cried, someone complained... Yadaa... Yadaa...

I was trying to ignore.

The stress that built up was more than what I expected. It practically pushed everyone to the verge of falling apart.

This ain't no ordinary course for anyone.

Stress Level: Maximum.
Risking personal and social lifestyle.

Good luck, may the best remains.

Wouldn't Want It to Happen

It's obvious. It is very obvious. But I don't want it to happen.I don't want our class to be the worst in the history of the Event Management course. The isolation is very clear, but I cannot believe how immature one can handle social life circles just like this.

Whether you like it or not.

I can tolerate, I can understand, I can forgive, I can forget, I can go along. Somehow the others will never be able to do that. That's like Godlike to them, a state of a holy saint, unachievable.

Why?

Despite how bad the situation it is, how bad the person is, how amazing the assignment can be, a task to be complete HAS to be completed. I couldn't understand people who doesn't gave shit about their responsibilities.I couldn't understand people who don't even bloody care. I cannot understand people who cannot tolerate and weigh between personal and work anymore.

I am trying to prevent this to happen.

But, I am not able to.

and failed miserably.

Frustration.

People don't communicate normally these days.
I don't know why.