Saturday, June 26, 2010

Going Home

Going home had never been exciting for me, never. Not once in my 20 years of life you would hear me telling you that I am glad that I am going home. Not even in National Service, since the period was not as long as this. But I had been happy for three days now.

And it's all because I am going home.

No, I am not saying that Korea is boring or I cannot adapt to the lifestyle over here or what not. I suppose what other people say is always true, you only know how to appreciate things when you lost them. Now, I miss every single thing that my home has to offer. Surprisingly, I even miss that Proton Saga that is even older than me. I miss my mum's cooking, my sisters' laughter and above all I miss the sense of belonging the most.

Malaysia might not be a perfect place to live, but it's sufficient. I might not know what will happen to me or where would I be in the next 20 years, but I would be really glad to say, I'm from Malaysia. There's no place like Malaysia, especially when we talk about the food. Fate might bring me to various places around the world, but I would definitely come back occasionally just for the food.

Oh yes, the food.

Where on earth would you find a place that sell Wanton Noodles, Roti Canai and Ramly Burger at the same time? I personally think that it is very possible that Malaysia market as a food tourism country along with the whole eco-tourism hype now. I doubt any country could have so many types of food in one place anyway.

I am happy.

I am going home, in less than a month. Being in Korea for the almost-one-year period of time had truly let me reflect on myself, thoroughly. I am quite sure I know what to do, what I want and where am I heading to after this getaway from reality. Things that I seen, people that I met, stuff that I experience, would make me a better person. I don't hope for a lot of things, I just wish that I would have the time to achieve what I want before my time comes.

The year was blank, I would say. Blank enough which allows you to paint it yourself, by your way. I did a lot, I experience a lot, and I understand a lot more. I did the first video here in Korea, I went for a night hiking trip for the first time, I met a lot of Chinese friends, and most of all I lost 4kgs! Not much for a list of achievements, but it definitely prove that if there's a will, there's a possibility for it to happen.

My canvas might not be perfect, but I am dead sure that it is very colorful. For that, I am truly glad. The deadline for the canvas submission is here. I had to hand it in and continue painting the canvas of my life, embracing my future and make sure that I would not regret any moment of my life. Not for the things I had done, but the things that I did not do.

I cannot afford to waste any moment of my life.

The time is too fast, suddenly it's been a full academic year and I have to go back and finish what I started, of course, what I'm referring to is my diploma. If things would go on well, after a degree with the second year entrance, hopefully Korea would want to take me back for Master program.

Meanwhile, I have to do what I have to do.

But for now, it's almost time for me to go back. I really miss every single thing back there. I miss random supper with Stephanie, random Pyramid outing with Jane, random badminton session with Soon Queen, random trip with Esther, Calvin and Sharon. I miss my event management classmates. I miss every single on of them. Don't worry guys, I would make it up for the whole year while I'm not there.

I am coming home.

Are you at home?

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

飞吧!

飞吧!  去找寻自己的幸福。飞吧!  去寻觅自己的未来。飞吧!  去开辟自己的道路。

飞吧!

当你抵达那里的时候,请记得要回头告诉我,你一定会过得好好的。

Monday, June 21, 2010

The Bet

And so I on top of the bet that I already got myself into, I had another bet with Adrian.

Well, both of us will do something positively to the personal development of ourselves within a year and by that time whoever that did not do it will have to suffer the consequences stated. Adrian is always on the thin side while I am always on the other side. Let's just say we are going to make the weight difference lesser. By the coming May when he comes back from America, he needs to gain 7kg while I need to drop my excessive love handles. Along with respective amendments which he needs to attain muscle mass instead of just fat, and I need to be able to do 50 push-ups by that stated deadline. If he did it, and I did not, I would have to play badminton for 4 hours straight and if I did it and he did not, he would have to swim 100 laps of freestyle straight. The bonus amendment is a meal decided by the winning bet fully paid by the losing bet. So if you did not do anything and the deadline is up, you are going to end up exhausted and broke. Aiks.

The duration we both have is 11 months.

I have 5 months of internship coming along. Well, I hope I can do it alright, if not I would need to pay for someone's travel expenses PLUS this 4 hours of badminton madness.

Oh gosh, wish me luck. =)

Friday, June 18, 2010

Bye, Teacher.


It's been a year, teacher. Thank you for teaching us Korean and looking at our ridiculous final test paper today. All of us would return to where we come from, but how we all ended up in one class makes it all the more beautiful. Malaysia, Cambodia, Japan, China and Korea. Hopefully ten years from now, we would sit together just like today with you and laugh about the same thing we wrote on the test paper.

Junction, Turn Left, Turn Right and Go Straight.

Good bye, teacher.
We have no choice but to keep on going.
Thank you, teacher.
We will miss you, I promise.

Saturday, June 12, 2010

因为,我一直相信着。

走吧!

往未来的路上走吧!

如果在路上再次相遇的话,就再一次拥抱问好。我不知道明天的我,会在哪里,会遇见什么人,会经历着什么事情,但是我还是一直相信着。相信这来临的明天,这条前往未来道路的尽头,会有我和你都期待的风景。“明天会更好",我常常这样告诉自己。明天,应该会更好吧!

路上保重了,我的朋友。又或许路上会遇见什么问题,又或许路上遇见不对的人,笑一下吧!我会一直在这里,给你我的肩膀,借你我的耳朵,让你我的双手,拍一拍身上的灰尘,站起来!加油吧,我的朋友。能的,什么都可以办到的。你一定要坚持,一定要一直相信着你的梦想。

因为,我一直相信着。

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

Tell Me

I feel detached but I am not lost.

Now, when everything runs on track, I am still standing at the side wondering whether I should take that train or not. I don't want to rush, rushing to somewhere I would never know what am I chasing after at the end of the day. I don't want to run, run to the direction where everyone else are running towards because not everyone knows why they are running, they just wouldn't want to be left behind.

And the rest just kept on going, somewhere.

I followed, once. Realizing that it is so redundant, trapped inside an endless loop, doing things that what others expect you to do. Life is not just like this. It is not framed by others, not defined by others. Life is about being different isn't it? No, I don't want to get married, have kids and then grow old without doing something else or just being what people think life is. Life is more than that, much much more than that.

Life is being special, isn't it?

I want to see the world. I want to learn, I want to experience and I want to know. What is wrong being like this? If the things follow the "order" of the nature, that probably placed us under the animal category. It might be unfair for me to judge, and it's nothing wrong following others because of insecurity and the ultimate marriage dream but please don't give me the look when you hear someone with a different idea about life.

Don't define how my life should be.

I will not be like you, accept it. I might be wrong, I might be right. You don't have to worry about me, I wish you all the best, and I hope you will do the same. I know where am I heading to, maybe I will be the same, but I will not be stagnant. Who I am to judge upon fate, but I would attempt to make my life memorable with my own ways.

Tell me, whether the grass is greener at the other side, whether the moon is brighter at the other side, or whether the air is fresher on the other side. Whether this is the life you had always wanted.

Tell me, when you get there.

Saturday, June 5, 2010

Thursday, June 3, 2010

Night Hiking


Went for the very first night hiking and realized that none of us has a proper torchlight. I learnt that in Korea, torchlight is pronounced as fu-re-shi (flash). It was a sudden decision, and yes, it was absolutely random. I adore randomness, I love minimal planning which only applies on outings, not anything major that will effect my future, my finance and my social lifestyle.

There were 4 of us, took the trail right behind over dormitory.

Wanted to go higher, but did not happen. There we were, sitting beside the big electric thingy and ate ramen and soba on top of one of the not-so-high hill. Discussed issues on the international aspect and then we head back down.

Total time taken, 4 hours max.

Happy birthday, Yazhou.